He's Peeing
It is my desire to be in the water today. I am parting ways with GoDaddy.com. I’m going to see my family, all of it, and my friends, as many as possible, for as long as possible. I have a list of things in my life that I feel I should start doing, so I’ll start doing them.
First, Kaki King is an awesome musician. Second, Elfen Lied is a really weird anime. Third, I’m not sure if I’m curious about things or if I’m just tinkering with them because of this.
There are three more days seperating me from a road trip through California. One of my stops, San Luis Obispo, has been removed due to everyone in that area being someplace else. This frees up a whole week of time which I’m not sure what to do with. Perhaps I should drive all the way up to Portland, OR or even Seattle, WA? Who knows.
I am sort of having a dilemma with Arizona right now. I could easily buy a house here and settle down for longer than I anticipated. I think I’ve always expected that Arizona was a temporary stop for me. Now, as I close in on two years here, I wonder if the transient visitor in me will strike again. I’ve never lived in one spot for more than two years, and it’s a cycle that feels somewhat comfortable.
When I think about the things that I am curious about in an effort to find resolution for this dilemma, I always come back to Rainer Maria Rilke and Letters to a Young Poet. Among the many concepts in his letters, Rilke always seems to take those things that most people lament, like loneliness, uncertainty, and suffering, and merge them with things like love, tenderness, and care in an effort to form a more complete sense of self. This appeals to me because I try to take things as they come anyway.
Maybe this trip will help me decide whether I should stay or go.
